Games and Self Worth

So to try and get away from how nasty the world can be sometimes, I play video games. As anyone who knows me, I like fantasy. Final Fantasy. And what better game then one with a whole bunch of other people who love FF playing together and making memories! Above is a quick sketch of my Scholar (healer). I was a TaruTaru/Lalafell (midget) before but Mithra/Miquote (cat girl) are easier to cosplay (dress up) later on.

I have come to love this character and all the stuff I have accomplished with her. I may color and finish it later but for now I like it as a sketch. I am also impressed with how my art style is changing for the better it seems. I can still do a total anime style if I like but still working on the realistic side. However, I feel I am heading in the right direction.

Not being in a relationship has its good and bad points I suppose. I give 100% when in one I am happy in which leaves not a lot left for myself but I make it work. When I am single I am depressed but tend to focus on myself more. Win/loose.

It has been awhile since drawing something I really like instead of tattoo art. It was nice. I wish more people accepted digital drawn art. I show my work to people and they ask how I did it and when I say Photoshop they assume its just manipulation. NO, I have a drawing tablet and instead of cutting down trees and using a ton of supplies, I have it all free, in front of me on a easier to use and better for my hands and wrist digital format. Mistakes are easier to fix and no longer mean that an almost finished painting gets water on it and ruins it. Don't get me wrong, I love traditional art as well. I like the look of it better to be honest, But from a talent point of view, I see no difference.

Anyways rant over.
Love you all <3

P.S. some pictures from my FF memories.

 Taru King and myself!

 Fishing!

 Hotspring

 Lantern Festival

 oh man that hideous top I had to wear for 5 levels.....

 Crystal Tower Story was the best so far

 Fun at the beach with my friends

 more Crystal Tower Stuff

 What my character looks like right now (got new gear!)

 What she used to look like....

 Aw yeah.... glowing book

 Friends got married! Then left the server ; ;

 Chilling at Lina's house

Good Night!

Sketch 18 - Purrrfectly Shocking

Misha Dallare. The anthro cat of our adventures party. She is emotionally secluded to anyone outside her trust circle. If you manage to get in the circle you are in it for life, however to get in may cost you one. A proud nomad, she is expert in the art of throwing and small weapons. Her element is electricity, however, she can only imbue her weapons with said element. With a secluded heart is there room for a love outside her family?

Sooooo much fun drawing Misha its unreal. Something about the sexy cat girls is just fun to draw....maybe its all those curves! There is a lot of debate floating around about what type of cat she is based from. Cougar? Jaguar? Havana Brown? Until her creator gets back to me we will leave it undecided (I prefer the cougar myself ... goes with the outfit and personality). Shes kind of like a fierce, cute amazon cat woman, no?

So much going on today, yet I did hardly anything. With how warm its been lately all the snow is melting far too fast and the roads and alleys are a slushy, muddy mess. Had to help my mom get out of the garage this afternoon because she got herself into a rut just outside the doors. And with three playful dogs our floors are a muddy mess. The sun is a nice change though ~

I also found out that a semi-local tattoo business called the Camrose Health Department on me for doing tattoos out of my house. Well not sure what a health department in a city 4-5 hours away is really gonna do to a person that has only done tattoos on 3 other people beside herself. And the fact they were volunteers and I didn't charge. Plus I use all sterile disposables and proper cleaning methods with a sterilizer on the way. So all I have to say to that is if they choose to come for me... BRING IT! I think the artist is just jelous because I do better tattoos then him with his 20+ years experience. (conceited ... maybe, but if you've seen the work he's done versus mine you might agree!) And I am in no way saying mine are amazing, I'm still learning after all and have only done 6. Very happy my friend informed me right away, at least now I can get all the papers in order. Oh well.

I am off to bed! Gym at early morning so need my sleeps. Goodnight world! Love ya <3

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